ohhh
today had a short meetup with
jin kun,xinying,guo yuan and hector
just to pass hector his birthday present
really they are the few best friends
emmm
normally i don't categories friends
so when i say that you are my best friend
this means that you mean alot to me
and i really appreciate you
and really like you as a friend
i really appreciate them
they are always there
we will stay back for night study together
they are really really awesome
i would say i'm a introvert
i don't really say out my feelings much
so if friends that stay by my side
they simply just real friend
because 我很被动
i must really say that
i don't remember xinying gave me a watch
我真的没印象
sorry xinying
我现在在看一些
娱乐百分百的短片
当我看娱乐百分百的短片
是我有点伤心的时候
不知道为什么现在
我有一点点伤心
just one sentence
seriously
just now
hector:'你星期六有去吗?'
me:'去哪里?'
then he simply kept quite
i didn't really care about that sentence
because maybe he just mistaken
me as guo yuan or jinkun
which always happened in the past
but after that
i think about it
its valery birthday
ohh
maybe it just a celebration for her
so ...
yeah
you get what i mean
hahahas
when i think and think
the only person will prepare a celebration
for valery is her
maybe i'm just not a friend to them
not like guo yuan, hector and jinkun
i'm just a classmate
not even a friend
well...
i don't know how to describe my feeling now
...
i must say that i really sucks at guitar
but i still prepared a happy birthday song
using guitar just for her
that is just about 20 seconds
so when i was on the bus back home
i looked at the
callouses on my fingerstips
i really really wonder
why i must record and record
over and over again
i don't know how many times i recorded
i used two days
to make it sounds right
i'm lousy right ...
i will still send it to her on her birthday
sometimes
a person feeling is like the
callouses on my fingerstips
when you get hurt over and over again
you get more numb each time
i just hope that
its just not what i think its gonna happen
我喜欢她
我心里知道就好
